“And you stood so proud
You had me wishing, wanting, begging for some words from you
And you smiled to the crowd,
It’s enough for now
’Cause we’re too young, we’re still kids..”
9.8.1991-7.21.2008
I can’t believe it has already been two years. I think about him everyday and what life would be like if he were still here. There are so many times that I wish I could see him, give him a hug, and hear his voice again. Ian could always make me laugh, even when I was having the worst day. He knew exactly what to say and when to say it. He completely changed the way I look at life & losing him taught me a huge lesson. Never take anything for granted. & When you feel like you have a rough life, just realize that there is someone out there that has it worse than you do. Thinking about all the times I shared with Ian keeps me going. I’m so fortunate that I had a little brother like him. He was always there for me, my best friend. No one could ever take his place. Ever since we were really young, he would stick up for me. If anyone would give me shit, I knew Ian would take care of it. Knowing that I don’t have him anymore kills me. The days I feel like giving up, I know he would kick my ass. I have my Mom & my brother watching over me from heaven, and my Dad here with me to help me stay focused. My Dad is the only one who truly knows what it feels like to lose my Mom and Ian. He has been there for me through it all & I don’t know what I would do without him. This is why I can’t stand it when I hear people bitch about their parents or how their younger siblings are a pain in the ass. It just shows how ungrateful, disrespectful, and ignorant people can be. I would do anything to bring my Mom and Ian back. He was too young. It hurts to know that he wasn’t able to go to Prom, graduate high school, go to parties, go to college, swim in college, and eventually find the love of his life, etc.. So live everyday to its fullest & be grateful for the opportunities that may be given to you along the way.
He touched the lives of everyone he met & will never be forgotten<3 I love you Ian, always & forever.
